Happiness is me being able to stay here till Saturday.

I would so not be ready to leave tomorrow.
So my train ticket was changed. Sweet.

I don't think I'll be ready to go back then, but whatever.

With whom shall I have late night adventures with then?
There is no one.
Sadflippenday.

Angst.
10-ish more months of angst.
Actually, that's not too much.
Especially if I distract myself with becoming obsessed with actually acquiring knowledge at school.
Would that not be something?

And you know, I have been happier these last 10 days without Wallie because I was not tempted to go on the Internet every 10 minutes.

Actually, that's not it. Wallie is not to blame.
Cause even if I had brought him with me, I wouldn't have gone on the computer any more than I have this week.

What stopped me from caring about el internetto was having people around all the time.

(side note: I am an introverted extrovert. Meaning I crave people's company, but I also very easily get lost in my own head and then I can appear to be
1. Rude
or
2. Socially awkward
Also meaning that I am totally okay with being by myself for long periods of time (and even like it) and that I generally tend not to miss specific people when I'm not with them.
Not really a good thing. It makes me feel like I have no heart.....haha
"No Matter!" (to quote Fitzgerald)

But --- I love people.
So much.
I love being around them and stuff.
End Side note)


THE BOOK THIEF

I finished it tonight.
So good.
One of my favorite books now.
I loved it.
So sad.
So good.
So depressing.

I can't even explain.

10 minutes later I started....

INKDEATH

It's the third (and final, I believe) book in the Inkheart series.
Gosh, its been so long since I've read that book.
I think it's been 7 years. Could it be?
Surely not....
Wow, I just checked the copyright.
2003.
So it's been about 6 years.
I remember borrowing it from my friend when I went over to her house, and not being able to put it down.
I also remember having it with me the first time I rode a community transit bus by myself.....

FIRST PUBLIC BUS RIDE (alone)

Haha.
That's all I have to say.
Man, how old was I....
Summer before 6th grade.
Just a few months out of elementary school.
I rode to work with my dad, and then walked from his office to the library.
I stayed there a while, having great fun.
It was, indeed, an edmonds kind of day.
And then it was time for me to depart.
I went to the bustop.

Basically I didn't know that the busses had different numbers, and I assumed you could just get on the first one that came up.

Nope.

After riding around a while I didn't recognize anything.
Finally we got to the transit center.....
Eventually I talked to the driver, he let me use his cellphone*, and then told me where to get off and transfer to get back on the right bus.

*Prime example of my poor communication skills.
I called my dad's cell. He did not answer.
I left a message.
Pretty much it just said "I got on the wrong bus.....okay, bye"
Fail.
Where are you, Jamie?
Do you have plans to get on the right bus?
What time is it?
Details, child, details!

Yeah....
So, I made it to my dad's house a little while later. He was kind of freaked out not knowing where I was and all...
And then he took me to my mom's since I guess it was her night.
Anyways.


FIRST TIME FLYING ALONE

I was going down south to the lone state of Texas to see my dad's side of the family.
This was, I think, the summer before 7th grade.

Texas has sketchy weather.
(massive downpour of rainrawrrain. Had I not just left Seattle...?)

After many delays (one of them being repair work due to a bird hitting the nose of the plane) changing planes (I got to board one through the back stairs), detours in Abeline, and being able to sit in first class for a bit, we arrived in Houston.
With no more flights going to Austin. It was too late.

So I got to stay the night in the airport.
They wrangled all the kids into one closed off area and put the boys in one room and the girls in another, but then there was also another room that all the children could go in if you didn't want to sleep.

Haha.
Fun night.
There was no sleeping.
We just kind of hung out and talked the whole time.

Oh, how I wish I had been older, though.
Because, like lots of stuff from back then, I don't remember it that well. And I was still slightly shy then. But you know, that may have been one of the things that stopped my shyness.

I would love to be able to do that over, though.
Talking to a bunch of people that I may never see again...sounds fun. I don't know.
Adventures are bomb, though.

QUESTION

Why have I been reading so much lately?
Its just been book after book after book with no rest.
Prep for English AP?
Hopefully that class isn't too crazy.
I'm taking...I think, 3 AP classes next year.

GREENVILLE (and other colleges)

I've decided I'm going to apply right when 2nd semester ends.
That way I will have better grades to show them that I am not an academic failure.
I plan on noting the change of grades in my application essays.
Saying how I wasn't motivated before, but now I am, and look how much better I'm doing.
Hopefully that works....
I just have to be in the top 50% of my class.
But good Lord, that is a lot of asians to compete with.
I don't know any asians who don't have something close to straight A's.
And I wish that was just a stereotype.
Nope.
I can not count how many times I've heard complaints of A-'s.
"I'm such a failure. I didn't get an A. It's an A-. How could I let this happen?!"

Really? Really, guys?
I'm content with a C+, and overjoyed with a B.
Maybe that's the problem.
Which is why I am going to test it out and see if becoming obsessive over it helps.

In my defense, even when I do study, and think I know stuff, I still end up failing.
Getting a D on a test last year was definitely not so rare.....
Pathetic.

At least I am not taking anything resembling Science next year.
Thank the Heavens (for their elasticity...(andrew bird))

And I have decided to make a list of other colleges.
Can't hurt, no?
I doubt I'll want to go to any of them, though.
But If I get accepted somewhere else, I will try it out for a year.
One year.
Maybe.
Depends where the college is.

Again, Greenville would be perfect and I don't care if it is freakishly small, boring, and not an exciting place.
A year of intimate living would not be a bad thing.

And my word.
The music stuff they have there....
It would be worth it.
I care not if everything else is miserable.

I learned that the band Augustana also met there.
That makes 3 semi famous musical things that stemmed for Greenville.
(that I know of)

1. Jars Of Clay
2. Augustana
3. Stephanie Smith

SOMEDAY YOU WILL BE LOVED

Came on Pandora again.
Death Cab.
Yay, Satellites.
I guess...

OTHER COLLEGES

Let's face it.
I'm fickle.
And looking at other colleges.
There are definitely some appealing ones.
Fickle.
Indecisive.
Never a good combination, friends.

Night.
This has gone on for too long.
Again


jk